Lilith Encounter

Tonight I had an encounter with Lilith while pathworking on the Tree of Death.

In the midst of a desert of perpetual night I eventually found my way to an oasis where she was waiting for me.

We spoke briefly about my magical endeavors, before she told me she would provide me sustenance. She referred to my body as a husk, and explained the sustenance was for the creature I was breeding with in.

I knelt before her between her legs.

A torrent of blood poured down on me from between her legs. I drank and almost drowned in the crimson flood.

My vision turned read and my eyes stung as the blood ran into them, eventually she left me there blood soaked and bloated from her blood. Everything turned grey, most notably my flesh. I looked into a mirror and saw myself as a creature of light and darkness. shadow bleeding into the light and constantly shifting.

Suddenly I remembered the form I have been dreamed of in by four or five separate people.

I understood that this was the form of my new self, it is an image powerful and attractive, capable of inspiring awe and fear. It is form related to several key events of my past. The people who have dreamed of it , with only two exceptions dreamed of it before meeting me.

Lilith's voice entered my head and spoke of her role as a something approaching a mother in this process and how to work with her in conjunction with the feminine aspects of my HGA.

I came out of the ritual feeling especially masculine but not chauvinistically so. Interesting that an encounter and submission to a quintessentially feminine force should have that effect.